Dear Anxious and tired,
My prayers go out for you. I have been there. Not with the major diarrhea, though. Try to keep yourself hydrated. You can use Gatorade, or Propel Water. Something to help with electrolytes. Talk to your doctor first about Gatorade. It caused my husband migraines. ( For those of you who use Gatorade just because, be careful. )
Stress and anxiety can take a toll an a body in many different ways. Try and discuss different medications to replace the Valium and /or discuss with your therapist a different twist in your CBT.
Those days you mentioned about concentration many of us know 100% of what you are talking about. Try to find time where you are number one for an hour or two and just do what you want or need to do. DO NOT disturb moments to get your mind refocused.
When things get anxious, step back, take a deep breathe, relax your brain, slowly let the information come back to gether and focus. Try not to get riled up if you can't remember. Relax and focus on what comes to your mind.
It may take some time and a few steps. Getting hard on yourself will not help at this pont.
You are important and so are your thoughts and the activiites you do during the day. Try to make a scheduale and keep it handly. (Sometimes I have to write a note just to remind myself why I went down stairs or why I am in the bathroom.)
You may have to much on your plate at this time. Prioritize your time and your mind. What are you responsible for and what can others be resonsible for. What are some things that can lighten you load?
Don't forget to have fun. In the good and try to find humor when things are down. Put on a smile just because you can. It doesn't matterhow you feel, put on a smile and see how your day goes.
I will do it today all day. It's a Monday,if anything can go wrong, it can happen on a Monday. Will you do it too. Let me know.
Everything I wrote is advise or suggestions. You are free to take it or leave it. I pray that God guides you through this at this time in your life.