1. I did not say that it wrong to carry around Xanax to make you feel safe if anxiety becomes intolerable. I believe that a person should take the most realistic measures to function and be happy in everyday life. If it means carrying around Xanax, then carry around Xanax. I think it is okay.
2. I agree with cognitive behavioral theories. All books I have read on this subject related to anxiety (and I have read about 20) state that carrying around a "safety" like Xanax is a form of avoidance. They say that a person must confront the situation they fear (having a panic attack). I have 3 books in front of me which support this idea. Panic Attack Workbook (Carbonell), The Agoraphobia Workbook (Pollard, Zuercher-White), Mastery of Your Anxiety and Panic (Barlow, Craske).
3. Many psychopharmacologists and psychiatrists disagree with cognitive behavioral theories. You may disagree too. That is perfectly fine.
4. l carry around Xanax. It does not mean that I am a hypocrite. It means that at this point in my life, I do not have time to do exposure work or learn to face my fears of having panic attacks. Right now, I need to function. I have to be realistic. In the upcoming months, I will let go of the bottle. The time has to be right.
5. The OP's question figured out his problem, like, 10 replies ago.