I was trying to find my original post but it's gone now! Anyway
I was suffering from depression and anxiety due to a phobia. It got really bad at the end of last year and I started medication in January of this year. I was really scared of taking it because I was afraid of the side affects BUT I am SO glad I stuck through it!
9 months in, I am happier than I have been in my entire life. I think clearly, I do not have anymore nagging or depressing thoughts. I am productive, I like being outside. All the symptoms I used to have are completely gone! I used to be scared of going outside, of driving, of being away from home for more than an hour. I was constantly worried about my life, other people's lives. I was a worrier. I was so depressed, I felt disconnected from reality. I thought I was going crazy. But I am so much better now. I feel "normal"
The side affects on Lexapro for me were minimal. I took it at night before bed so I wouldn't feel weird during the day. I can take it during the day not with no affect but I still take it before bed. The only thing I noticed is that it gave me a headache for the first month. After that it went away. It took about 3 weeks for it to start working on me, though I hear that it can sometimes take a month or two.
My advice is to NOT GIVE UP. Stick through it and I promise, you will feel so much better! I don't know if Lexapro is for everyone, I mean, it worked for me. I'm just saying that in general, DO NOT GIVE UP. I was so against medication but I tried EVERYTHING and nothing worked. I went to therapy, I exercised, I tried meditation. It would help for a couple of days and then I was back to my depressed self. Finally I gave in and took medication and I do not regret it AT ALL.
I cannot even begin to describe how better life is now. PLEASE do not give up on yourself! I almost did, but I'm glad I didn't. Don't get better for other people, do it for yourself.
IT GETS BETTER, only if you try :) Good luck!