Hi Ian, it's sethman (from our other robust public/PM conversation
.) We've got to keep on meeting like this
I am not treating my anxiety disorder with any
replacement drugs or supplements, only with daily meditation & breathwork, and lots of just bearing it. Except for that occasional swig of brandy, mentioned in my opening post. I use that only at bedtime to help fall asleep, when I have a particularly bad nighttime anxiety attack.
But I'm using nothing for my significant daytime anxiety except "grin & bear it," meditation, and of course, lots of distracting myself away from focusing on it with my work and socializing.
I'm doing this because, as we discussed in that other thread, I believe some or all of what I'm experiencing is w/d symptoms from 14 years of intermittent Klonopin use. I'm testing that theory by trying to stay off of all BZDs or other CNS "calmatives," for enough months to make any trace of w/d symptoms a moot point.
If I still feel significant anxiety after, say 12 or 18 months, I'm going to assume it's not w/d, just lifelong waxing & waning of the anxiety disorder...and I'll probably resume Klonopin.
On the other hand, if I start to feel better and better without K until the anxiety never returns, it's going to be a pretty strong verification that the anxiety I was experiencing was being caused
by the Klonopin, not abetted by it, and by my body/brain's response to it being absent.
I know that you & I have differed on this "protracted w/d syndrome" issue...and there's a part of me that hopes you're right and I (and other BZD withdrawers with prolonged symptoms,) are wrong. Because my anxiety is very aggravating and I would just love to resume Klonopin (regularly this time, not intermittently,) and get some relief. But enough people have said, "Just wait, just wait...hold on, eventually you'll feel better than you ever did before or during Klonopin use," that I'm hoping to stay free for at least a year and find out if they're right.
BUt I'm having a tough time with it, especially at night...hence the question about CDB vapor.