Hi. I am new to this site, but have come to it many times in the past because of my health anxiety. I have been suffering for many years, but the last year or two have become really bad. I am constantly looking for reasurrance that I am ok from family, friends and my doctor. I am currently waged in a battle with chronic chest pain (sternum area) and upper back pain. I am extremely nervous about my heart being bad or having a clot. My doctor has assured me that he is 99.9% sure it is not my heart and that it is my extreme worries that are taking over. he agrees that i should consider therapy. I have been on Klonopin daily for many many years and my doctor recently increased my daily dosage of Lexapro.
I am a 43 year old runner (and have been for 8 years or so) since an executive physical that included a CT Angiogram showed mild plaque in my LAD artery. I began to take a daily baby aspirin and a statin since then as well to help control the progession of the mild disease that i may have.
Recently, as well, with the chest pain, i have experienced some bad runs (for me). I generally run 8 miles a day every other day and the last 2 weeks or so I have really struggled to do 6 or 7.
I am extremely scared and nervous that i have an underlying disease that is being missed. i have had many many many many tests over the years and trips to the ER. The last being in January 2014 where i had a chest CT with contrast to rule out PE and any other chest related abnormalities. The test was normal.
i do believe that i have pain from something. and I am probably making it worse by focusing on it. but i cant get it to go away and allow me to "relax". This all consuming problem really affects my ability to live life more fully.
I wish my head could understand that I am very likely healthy and i could get past these feelings.[hide][/hide]