My anxiety manifested as physical pain and led to a long time of near incapacity and visions of taking my life.
A couple of things helped.
1. Teaching and writings of Abraham Low MDhttp://youtu.be/oSdSCvJwOzU
2. Another anxiety forum
3. A friend with whom I could identify, as she had similar but different symptoms.
The pain is gone, because I had to overcome the fear
of it. I developed Kynsiphobia (fear of movment). I anticipated every move to be painful, and it was. No meds worked to tamp down the pain but benzos, which I never had a sufficent supply of, until the latter states of my anxiety problem, thanks to the bad reputation placed on them by the uniformed.
Allopathic doctors were useless. They kept searching for a physical cause to the pain, and sent me for tests and diangosed me with too many things to go into here, but the one "back problem" they dx'd caused an even further downward spiral, and some doctors would not even see me because of it.
The therapy community were useless, too. Psychiatrists are pill despensers for the most part, and the therapists that you get sloughed off on are clock watchers and have no or little understanding of the physical symptoms of anxiety. For a third of sufferers, maybe, an anti-depressant of some type helps, but if it does not, then you are essentially out of luck. This is especially bad when anxiety brings you myofascial pain or Fibromyalgia.
Most forums and sites were useless, too. After awhile, how many times could I read that my back and side and abdomen could be twisted and torqued due to tight muscles. Okay, I believed
, but what to do? Here is where most forums and sites fall down. Plenty of symptom info, not enough on how to get healthy.
I lost family who didn't care to understand, friends, income from work, spontinatiy due to fear of movement due to pain. It was only though the grace of God that I did not lose my life at my own hand.
Society in the 21 Century is ill equipped to deal with people with nervous issues or anxiety. This is especially true if you are male, unfortunately. If you are male
and living alone
you are in an even bigger hardship. Try to change that. I don't know how many times I was told to "snap out of it", and it is
true; it was what I had
to do, but how? And, it's not so easy to ignore or snap out of pain that has inprinted itself in your brain and central nervous system and which made even the slightest movements torture, sitting, standing, walking, laying down.
Dr. Abraham Low, a nueropsychiatrist, taught me what is now called CBT or even ACT Threapy. Lots of stuff has been written since he practiced in the 1930's and 1940's, but human nature has not changed. Most guides to anxiety today pamper the patient (I hate to say that, but it was my finding and opinon), and/or have them keep endless records, read charts, write journals, try to measure their "feelings" and just bogg the per person down with mental exercises that keep them from overcoming the main problem of anxiety, which is fear
. Dr. Low does not allow for pampering, because life does not pamper, and he does not allow for you to endlessly ruminate about yourself. You had to be "self-led" and not "symptom-led", or you would fail.
Find help if you can, good help. If you can't go to the simplist source that gets right to the point, and you will know that source when it tells you that fear
is the problem, and tha tno matter what happened in your past, fear
still is the probelm. You may be helpless but not hopleless. Fear can be you jailor, if you let it. Many do, not because they want to, but because they are never shown the path out.
Didn't mean to be so long-winded. I have bounced back here to AZ --because this was where I first landed, in trouble, under a different but similar name--to lend support where and when I think I can, but now it is time to move on completly.
Best of health to everybody! Mental health is not a game. It is your business, your life's business.