I commonly feel these feelings of "HOLEY CRAP, I'M ALIVE!!" And I feel super conscious of my existence and very panicky and open.
I also commonly feel very trapped in and closed up.
Because of these feelings..... It's almost like I feel like this life is inferior. I feel like I "know something now" and life is pointless... But there's nothing else except this life! Will I feel like this forever?
I feel better when I am distracted though. At school these past two days I have felt better. But I sometimes feel like "CRAP, life is pointless and I have to deal with this anxiety forever" out of nothing.