I am in my early 40's now. In 2006, one day sitting at my office at work, I began having skipped heartbeats. Scared the crap out of me. I went to ER and was cleared after a nuclear stress stress. For the next several months, I was a nervous wreck with chronic chest pain. Probably went to the ER 4-5 times in several months. Always normal. I eventually went to the Cleveland Clinic for an executive physical and had a complete workup by a preventative cardiologist that included a 64 Slice CT Coronary Angiogram (very new technolgoy at the time that showed 3-D images of the heart).
All of my tests were normal, except to the surprise of the cardiologist (because all my labs were good, BP was good, EKG and echos and stress test were good). - the CT Coronary Angiogram showed that I had "mild" mostly calcified plaque in two distinct spots in my LAD. All other arteries were clear. Needless to say this freaked me out. I thought I was a ticking time bomb.
However, the cardiologist assured me that no such minor plaque would cause chest pain. Also, it was later explained to me that calcified plaque is "preferable" as it is less prone to rupture than uncalcified plaque (more prone to rupture).
Needless to say, because of the results of the test and even though my cholesterol levels were fine, I was informed to eat better, begin to exercise and to take Lipitor.
I did all 3. I became an avid runner and I have been on Lipitor for 8 years. My HDL cholesterol is now higher than my LDL cholesterol. The goal is to slow any progression of any plaque formation over my lifetime to whereby it may never be of any clinical nature.
Believe me, I stress about it. I take anti-anxiety medications daily as a result and I have been back to the ER on a number of occassions and always normal.
My regualr doctor is convinced that I am extremely healthy and that nearly "everyone has some plaque". In fact, based on studies of autopsies of veterans of Vietnam War, it has been determined that plaque formation begins early in life and is a progressive disease of aging (although some may never get it).
Basically, I was told that if every 35 year old in the country had a CT coronary angiogram, that likely half of Americans would have some plaque.
Am I better off knowing or not knowing ? I am better off knowing, because now I can be preventative before something happens. (medication, eating healthy, exercise).
What I need to to work on is my mental health. Which I am beginning therapy this week to help me deal with everday pains of getting older and realizing everything is NOT a heart attack. To live in fear is no way to live and I am done living that way as of this week beginning with my therapy.
Enough about me. You need to work on "accepting the diagnosis". Your test results were outstanding. Their is no way to guarantee against what tommorow may bring. However, in your case, it is not a heart attack.
Even my cardiologist now says that my risk of a heart attack over the next 10 years is less than 1 percent. (basically as low as they can say). You have Health Anxiety like most of us here. And I know what that feels like.
Look into speaking with your personal doctor about helping with that. I think that is more of a concern than your heart at this time. Plus, the posters before me (fishpa, etc.) should have provided you with some additional reassurance. They certainly have done so for me indirectly just reading their posts.
Cheers to your continued good health!