I am almost 20 weeks pregnant, and I've had anxiety for, oh, about 10 years? But this pregnancy, it is the worst it has ever been. I cannot function, cope, relax, anything at all. My HA is the worst part, but I constantly worry about everything - my baby, my husband, my neighbours, the future of our family, my mother, what people are thinking about me, the in-laws, literally everything. It's gotten so bad now that I think I am getting depressed where I am able to cry at the drop of a pin, waking up early in the morning, feeling fatigued, etc.
The number one issue for me right now is my bounding pulse that I can feel throughout my body, especially my head and neck. Apparently this is normal during pregnancy, but it is causing me severe anxiety. I also have serious brain tumor fears as I've had a headache 70% of the time for two months now, although admittedly it is not getting any worse with severity. My forehead, lower back of head and neck hurt pretty badly right now.
I just don't know what to do anymore. If I'm not worrying about something with me, I end up worrying about my unborn baby girl to the point where I start to shake and cannot concentrate.
I do have an appointment with a psychiatrist that specializes in pregnant woman this Thursday, so I'm grateful for that.
I guess why I am posting is because I'm fed up with people just telling me to snap out of it, or to relax for the baby's sake. I would if I could. I feel so guilty.
Any suggestions? Thanks.