Marie, I'm not trying to be mean AT ALL - you know how similar we are and how much I sympathize with what you're going through. I know how hard this all is, okay? It feels like your life has been taken out of your own hands and someone else is controlling it. It's like being in a video game and someone else has the controller. I'm so sorry that you're going through this, I really really am.
BUT - You need to stop looking for reassurance multiple times a day on multiple different "possible" illnesses, cancers and diseases. By posting here ten times a day you're not making yourself any better at all, it's starting a vicious cycle that you need to end now. You need to take some legitimate and serious steps towards getting better - you have a prescription for a very safe and good anxiety medication, you've had it for about a month now and yet you will not take it. Why not?
I understand how hard and scary this all is. It's terrifying. I get it and I go through the same thing. But you're only hurting yourself right now and I just want to see you get better. You know that being on this site can be a trigger for you. You need to take steps to get out of this anxiety ridden chaotic cycle. I know you can do it. Try limiting yourself to only posting (making a topic) twice a day. I don't want you to get stuck on this, I was in a very similar phase before where I was seeking 24/7 reassurance, and as much as I've been helped by the members here on AZ it's important to remember that none of us have medical degrees - we only have personal experiences and sympathy.