Anyone had this? I am a 27 year old female and for 10 years i had hocd at first i didn't know such an ocd could exist so i was really scared a about 2007 i learned that this is another ocd a common one too still that didn't relieve me. I always thought this would go away on it's own but here i am 10 years later feeling the same it is a little bit better but still there, i have wasted all these years of my life petrified to watch movies,talk to other females all because i fear being attracted to them all these years i just can't get rid of this, i've had tons of groinal responses ,been on different ssri's none helped which is worse is that i have never had a bf due to being rejected and not really being around people. Liking guys has been everything to me it's the thing that always made me happy and this ocd has taken that away from me i've still liked plenty of guys but it just doesn't feel the same with these thoughts. I also fear when i do get a boyfriend finally that i won't enjoy it because of this ocd. I really need advice on how to beat this i do not want this to be my life forever i want to enjoy life again and with this thoughts i cant anyone have advice?