I developed PTSD due to an 8 year abusive marriage but I've been dealing with that pretty well lately. I was also diagnosed with PTSD after losing my son 4 years ago. I haven't dealt well with that at all. I went months without nightmares though but now they're back. I have been having such a hard time lately with depression, anxiety, panic disorder and OCD that sleep was my only respite. Now I don't even have that. I feel like I'm going crazy, like my mind is going to break. I can't stop reliving things and having these horrible thoughts and fears. They're ALWAYS on my mind. I desperately need something to change but can't afford counseling.