Hi everyone. I am sorry to be mentioning N. fowleri again but I am losing this fight against my phobia and really need to vent.
Backstory: five days ago I got a lot of water up my nose while bathing. I live in San Francisco and have a storage hot water heater.
When the event that caused my HA flare-up first occurred, I was joking about my fear a bit. Lately, I have been convinced that I am dying for sure this time. My body is in all sorts of stages of adjustment (got an IUD put in Tuesday, also started my period, am currently suffering from a hangover, did upper body exercises for the first time in weeks on Wednesday...) so any feeling of discomfort that could be caused by a number of things BUT meningoenchephalitis, I have been interpreting as the first symptoms of my impending death. My neck has been sore for the last couple of days (probably from the tension in my shoulders because of the push-ups and chin-ups I did Wednesday), I feel weak and tired (probably my hangover), and I keep getting these dull, ephemeral headaches behind my right eye (don't know why, but it's probably the N. fowleri chiseling away at my frontal lobe). I can't stop thinking about this, and I occasionally experience moments in the day where it dawns on me that I am dying. I'm pretty convinced that I am.
I am getting married in a week and then going on my honeymoon for a few weeks. I am terrified that I am going to get really sick and die before I get to experience those things. My fiancé thinks I am crazy, and he even checked the water temperature for me in an attempt to convince me that the hot water heater is set at a high enough temperature to kill the amoeba, but my fears continue. I'm trying to be stronger than this but I am failing horribly :|
I'm sorry for being just another nut terrified that I am dying from N. fowleri. Thanks for reading, and I appreciate any words of wisdom anyone might be willing to offer.