I started Trazodone last week at 75mg. It's supposed to help you sleep - something that I've had a lot of trouble with due to anxiety. Well, they said take it one hour before bed (like it's THAT potent). It's not. It took 4 to 5 hours for me to even feel sleepy.
I talked to my P-Doc and he said to double it. Yep. 150mg. Did that. Stuffy nose side effect. Laid in bed for hours. Slept til 2pm!! So it DOES make you tired as hell but it DOESN'T - at least for my brain - put you out (which I NEED).
As usual, nothing feels managed medication wise, even though I see my GP and a new Psychiatrist. And here comes the time of year when I would LIKE to travel a few hours to Cape Cod and enjoy the beach and the clean air yet all I can do is ruminate about getting there and getting into a strange bed and pound pound pound - there goes my heart, here comes my panic, there goes me getting ANY sleep! I get some serious depersonalization and severe anxiety and panic when I don't sleep. The BIG fear that has developed over many years, is not sleeping away from my own bed. Which of course is a self-fulfilling prophecy but one that I can't seem to control. I was always ok as a kid but as an adult this has just escalated and escalated. I once drove 7 hours, had a panic attack in bed, and DROVE back. Brilliant.
It's not the drive nor being far from home (although that has something to do with it). When I tell Doctors this, they write me a prescription. That's fine. But they don't seem to understand that I go into what I call "violent, long-term, sleep-deprived panic." I've ended up in the ER because of this and this was at home! I can take 30mg of Valium and still be awake. (I've been dependent for 20 years on Benzos).
Does anyone have any good medication combo-cocktails that have worked for them with a phobia similar to this? I feel like I can handle fear and anxiety and panic SO much better if I can sleep!! I started 10mg Lexapro with the Trazodone and also take 8mg Diazepam every afternoon. Thanks for listening.