Hi Everyone, my name is Mike. I am 42 years old, a father of 3, and have been married 19 years. I have been thru some pretty bad stuff, but have come out on the other side better than I was before. I want to share my story and success in hope that it will help someone else.
I can trace back my anxiety to my earliest years, of course then, I didn't have a clue as to what it was. In my early 20's, it started effecting me more at work and then of course rolled into my personal life. I had no clue as to what it was. I saw my GP and he recognized it, but didn't tell me what it was. He gave me some meds (I have no clue what I took) and it got better. I was able to function, changed my position ***** work, and was able to live what I thought was a "normal" life. I did that for years. Avoiding (making excuses) for the things I didn't like or didn't want to do, ie Agoraphobia habits. My wife has always been very understanding and accepted the things I didn't like to do. In the late 90's I spent a lot of time at Barnes and Noble, researching and learning about my disorder. I learned about diet, exercise, meditation, cognitive behavioral therapy, spirituality, journaling, prayer, all the natural things to combat my disorder. I felt empowered with knowledge and accepted the fact that there were simply some things I couldn't do, but everything else I was going to do better. And I did.
By the time my mid 30's came around, I was working in and industry that was going thru a lot of turmoil. My anxiety was spinning out of control and all of the things I had learned were not working. I tried really hard, and the harder I tried, the more I became disappointed in myself that I could not get on top of it. Then depression set in. Depression was a whole new animal and an extremely tough opponent. I went to see my GP (now new, because it had been over 12 years since I saw my last one) and he gave me meds. I tried the antidepressant he gave me and right away the side effects were horrible. I was able to take the Xanax, but I took it very sparingly because I didn't want to get addicted to it. I was too proud to go back and tell him it didn't work. So I suffered. I suffered about a year with my depression. I had lost a lot of weight during that time and my self esteem was in the pits. I was anxious, depressed, low, it was horrible. But, I managed to put a program together for myself, heavy intensity of positivity and exercise. In those days I remember telling myself that Joel Osteen and Tony Horton (P90x guy) saved my life. I got better.
Fast forward 4 more years, and everything comes crashing down again. What caused it? Normal, everyday stress. After trying to fix it myself, go to therapy, etc, I finally went to see a Psychiatrist. Through some short trial and error, I found a med plan that worked for me. I have been on the meds now for 18+ months and feel great. I feel better than I did before early 20's, I am able to do more and be more. I thank God often as to how far I have come.
I wasn't a big believer in Western Medicine, but now I am completely sold. I still do all the things that I learned and taught my self, but combining that with a little medication, I am even better. I think God challenges everybody in some sort of way, this was my challenge.
My name is Mike, I hope my story inspires and helps.
Everything is going to be ok