So after countless tests, the doctor tells me I might just as well be dealing with anxiety. which after that I get prescribed Ativan only to work its effect temporarily.
sad to say I thought that was going to be the solution to this wicked curse.
my symptoms turn from bad to worse. I might have a couple of good days, or even weeks, just to go back to square 1. when I get my headache/blurry vision/facial numbness...I assume brain cancer or tumor. when I get my tremors and body shaking I assume MS ASL, Parkinson's you name it. I don't know if I myself amplify these symptoms or they are really there. it's the lowest I feel and no one can reassure me otherwise. I feel horrible. I cant enjoy life, I can't picture the future since I don't know what it holds. I cant be a good wife, mother, sister or daughter. I feel ashamed to let others know what I go through. so I rather live in misery. I don't know what it feels like to feel "good"....I cant REMEMBER when's the last time I felt good. I depend on going to the doctor so much. I feel they might oversee my symptoms as they might just think its Anxiety. I want to be normal....I don't want to have to worry about my well being all the time. I just wanna be happy.