Hello BT. Welcome to Anxiety Zone... My name is Chuck, and I am one of the Global Moderators here on the site.
You are now a member of our community, where you will find support and advice from other members in similar situations. It's always nice to find someone else who understands, and to know you're not alone.
We have sections in the forum that address specific concerns, so feel free to post or start a new topic in the section that best fits your situation. Feel free to explore the rest of the forum. You may find the other topics helpful, and you may be able to offer advice or support to someone else.
We also have a chat room for members over the age of 18. Once you have made three meaningful posts, you will be allowed access to the chat room.
BT, how much Zoloft are you currently taking? I am glad to hear that even though you are away from home right now, you are continuing to see a therapist. Make certain that you are 100% open and honest with your therapist, as to your current thoughts, guilt, and worries.
Remember, we are not our thoughts. As negative as they are, as long as we don't act on them, then that is all they are, just thoughts. Have you been taught cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT)? If not, talk to your therapist about CBT. Part of CBT teachings is to substitute positive thoughts for negative ones.
It's good to have you as a member here on Anxiety Zone. You will find many members that are experiencing what you are.
The very best to you, BT!... Chuck