I have found from personal experience that until I got to the triggers of my anxiety, I would skip from one type of health anxiety to another and back again . . . and, yes, googling is the worst you can do because anxiety brain loves to have new information . . . it does not care if it is right or wrong for the specific person, it is simply something more to work with to create anxiety . . .
Now, the good thing is that you are going to the doc . . . and looking at CBT which did a lot for me . . .different meds work differently for different people and so too do different therapies work differently for different people, but I do find CBT of great value . . .
You need to stop judging yourself by what your friends are doing . . . you need to deal with you and where you are at this specific moment . . .and I think that you are doing that because you know your anxiety is not healthy and not the lifestyle you want . . . right now, I think you need an outside objective point of reality to help you break out of the pattern you are in . . . . sometimes even a negative pattern can be a comfort zone because change can be scary but it can also the the opportunity . . . so, bottomline for me would be to get some professional help . . .you may need to try a couple of different counselors to find one that aligns with your needs, but remember it is your life so you need to take charge as difficult as this may be . . .and also remember that this is not a quick fix but a process that may have roadblocks, but we are here if you think we can support you . . .
As for alcohol . . . stay away from it because it most often does intensify anxiety and when anxiety comes into play, well, sometimes our judgment is not that great and the effects last much longer than any hangover . . . .you had an argument with your best friend . . .if you are truly best friends, then you apologized so let it go . . . . but if your best friend doesn't need to be drunk, then why do you? Obviously, you have a best friend and that is support that is hard to replace so nurture it . . .
You are not self pitying yourself if you are willing to do something to change where you are at this point in time . . . and you are doing that . . . you have a health issue . . . whether it is better or worst than someone else is really not the point . . . for you, this is a health issue of significance . . . . has nothing to do with self-pitying . . . it has everything to do, though, with taking charge of your live and taking care of your health . . . as for a long post . . .you can make your posts long or short . . .whatever you want . . .sometimes when we write a lot, it helps us to objectify and externalize what is going on inside of us and that often is a great help . . . check in with us whenever you can . . .take care, kc