My fear of death is difficult to explain unless you are a parent. I never really feared death before having my daughter (18 months old) and these last three months, it's been weighing heavy on me. I don't want to leave her behind or my husband for that matter. I want every ounce of time that I can get with them that I can and the thought of my daughter growing up without me just tears me up inside.
Recently, I have been able to get away from these thoughts and just life in the now and make the best of my time with my daughter and my husband... then my mom called. She made a comment that triggered something (I didn't even see it coming), not knowing that it would of course because she doesn't understand my anxiety. My husband is the only one I talk to about these thoughts though because he understands me. I do want to seek some sort of therapy though. My husband travels a lot for work and I feel like I could use the extra listener with some input.
How does one go about finding a therapist to help with anxiety anyway? Especially a mom who works full time, is taking care of a toddler and has a husband that's often out of town for work. I know I need it but I just don't know where to begin.