My life is falling apart. Last year I was seeing a psychiatrist that seemed more interested in peddling his new ssri drug samples then to help me. He put me on Pristiq, prozac, and vibryd. I told him I wasn't depressed and that I suffered from panic attacks and anxiety filled throughout the day. He said that depression is what is causing the anxiety--maybe he's right. Either way the meds made me feel worst and changed my personality for the worse--so I stopped.
I've been off the meds for I believe 4 months now and I was doing fine with only a few episodes here and there, until last week it came back with a vengeance. One episode got so bad that a family member called 911, I would have never agreed to that because it's taking emergency help from someone who really needs it, because as soon as they got to my home it started to come down and the said my blood pressure was really high--brought on from the panic.
I just moved and don't have the same doctor and haven't even looked into one yet. I'm just afraid they will just start prescribing the anti-depressants again. I'm sick and tired of feeling this pending doom, in the car it's the worst, I'm strapped in my seatbelt and can't just abandon my car to "walk it off," and look like a mad lady on freeway. I've stopped drinking most caffeine, I used to love my morning coffee and daily sugar-free redbull--can't have anymore.
I've stopped my daily mile runs in fear of raising my heart rate because I can't separate fast heart rate brought on by normal exercise verse a panic attack coming. I went and bought some stress B-Complex that the local pharmacist recommended to me and had one yesterday but started to panic that the vitamin would bring a stimulant effect. I'm LOSING MY MIND--FREAKED ABOUT A VITAMIN??? SOMETHING NATURAL?
I had the flu last week and was afraid to take any medicine, everything scares me. I won't eat chocolate in fear of the sugar rush, adrenaline scares me so bad now. I used to love the adrenaline feeling, I could move mountains--now it freaks me out. Sorry this is sooo long.
Even the hunger feeling in my tummy freaks me out, because of that chest fluttering feeling it gives that is slightly the same as the one I get with my attacks. At this rate I'm going to be fat from not exercising and eating too much to avoid the hungry feeling--being fat will bring even more anxiety because I can't allow myself to be fat--ever!
I'm so miserable and the people around me will eventually lose patience with me.
HELP. Any advice would be helpful and appreciated, natural remedies? Ways to calm down? I dunno, something.