Hello everybody. I wish to share a horrible experience I had yesterday whilst shopping in the town centre with my mum.
Before I went out I badgered my mum on her opinion of what I should wear out. It seems I am always doing this, especially in Summer as I am scared of getting stuck out in hot weather in inappropriate clothes as I really can't tolerate hot weather - it makes me panicky.
So I am walking down the street in a loose cotton t-shirt and a pair of jeans on. I am starting to feel uncomfortable, especially my legs under these warm jeans with no air to breathe. Then we turn a corner and the sun starts to come out and I am walking down this street with absolutely no shade and nowhere to go except the Morrisons in the distance. I start to feel so unbearably hot I am almost jogging down the street to get to the Morrisons, haphazardly crossing the road without much care, leaving my mum metres behind. I am almost to the front doors when my vision starts to tunnel and everything feels far away. I am feeling hot and dizzy and I start to panic.
I rush into the shop and rush to the nearest fridge section. I am feeling very lightheaded and I feel like I am getting headrushes. I am so scared and sure I am going to faint. I take some water from the fridge and drink it (I payed for it afterwards of course, I don't condone this normally) and place it on my head, desperate to cool down, willing myself NOT to faint, so sure that I will.
I stand there for a while, shaking. Gradually I start to feel better and cool down, though still a bit dizzy. My mum finds me and says I just 'stressed out'. Since my anxiety got bad a couple of years ago, I seem to be so bad at dealing with hot weather. I don't seem to sweat very much, despite keeping myself hydrated I only sweat a little from my armpits and the small of my back, and the rest feels dry. My latest trick is to bring a bottle of water with me and keep splashing it on me to cool down, it works but I fear I am spoiling my ability to sweat naturally.
It was 21 celsius yesterday, a bit breezy and not humid. Is that really warm enough to make somebody ill/pass out? Oh, and is it even possible to stop yourself from passing out? Is that mechanism bypassable? Is there such thing as 'nearly fainting'? This was such a horrible experience I have lost confidence with dealing with hot weather.