So I have "stumbled" upon something that I do that feeds greatly into my anxiety.
When I am by myself (taking a walk, driving the car, etc.) and my mind wanders from topic to topic, I have started to catch myself thinking terrible things: Getting into fights with my friends or family, something bad happening to the kids, crashing the car... all kinds of horrible things. I have to "SNAP" myself out of it and literally say to myself STOP THINKING STUPID STUFF. If I don't catch myself, I go though the whole bad story, and then move onto something else... I THINK my body / brain, however, DON'T move on, and go into PANIC MODE as if the horrible story I was playing in my mind was REAL. Suddenly I have an anxiety attach or my physical symptoms start bothering me or whatnot. (and not always remembering that I was "playing" this bad story in my head, I have no clue why I am panicking.....
I have no clue why I play these "disaster stories" in my head. I am learning to stop them when they happen, but I fear that they happen more often than I am aware of. I think this is a HUGH clue to my anxiety. It's like I am intentionally pouring gas on the fire.
Anyone else fighting this battle?