Im a 24 (soon 25) year old swedish guy who have been worried that i will develop psychosis och schizophrenia for about 8 years after a panicattack.
It all started when i came home from a vacation when i was 17 years old, it was a lot of partying and alcohol for seven days, and when i came home i was going to bed and i started to sweat and my heart started to race, when i closed my eyes all kind of different scary images poped up in my head and i didnt know what to do, so i whent upp and it felt like i was going mad, after a while i finally came to sleep and the next day i was fine, a week went by and i went out drinking with my friends and then the brain fog or derealization hit me, i felt wierd and had like a brain fog for about 6 months. Whas this a panic attack i had?
And that was the time i started too google and found psychosis and my health anxiety kicked in big time!
I started to worry and talked to many doctors and they all said it was anxiety, then i found schizophrenia and i have been worried that i would get it for a couple of years. Ive seen many doctors and specialists but they all tell me its anxiety but i still searching for schizophrenia on the internet and its feel like im never gonna let this go. I am afraid that i will start hearing voices or get delusions and get locked up for the rest of my life.
When i was a kid i washed my hands all the time because i was afraid of germs, then i worried that i would get homosexual and when all this went away i started to worry that i was going mad and here i am today.
I tried cbt and it worked pretty well, i went abroad last summer and i have had ups and downs but for the most i have feelt good the last 2 years but now im convinced that im going to get schizophrenia again.
My symptoms is that i feelt slow in my head the last 2 weeks, dizzy and kinda spaced out. I also get a wierd thing with my vision a couple of times a year, its not happening so often (like 2-3 times a year) but my vision zooms out when im talking with people like micropsia, they seem far away and small. Google if you wanna know what i mean.
i read that micropsia is pretty common in shizophrenia and thats whats started my worry again this time, but i have had this all my life but its more rare nowdays.
Also when i get anxiety and feel this brain fog och derealization i cant concentrate when im playing video games, i feel slow and my reaction time is pretty bad. Im also pretty worried that i will stuck in this brain fog state and never gonna enjoy my life.
Am i getting schizophrenia or is this my health anxiety/ocd? We have no schizophrenia in my family that i know of, the only thing is my uncle who is kind of a compulsive liar, but he have a wife and everything so i dont think he's schizophrenic.
I sometimes also get some weird muscle twitching, but i think thats anxiety.
Sorry if i misspelled something.