Hi all. My name's Patrick. My story with anxiety goes about as far back as I can even remember, and I feel that I've never come to grips with the world around me and all the sights and sounds that everyone else seems to enjoy kind of scare me, quite frankly. It's made my life extremely boring and mostly unproductive, but still as if I have all the (nervous) energy in the world. I never got to do most of the things I wanted to, but I'm 36 so who knows?
Anyway, I grew up on the east coast and now live near the west coast (loving the lack of humidity where I am compared to where I grew up). I'm an artist and a writer but not professionally. I have a pretty dark sense of humor but I'm also a goofball and seem to be able to get along with a wide range of people, but over the years especially the teens, I had major depression problems and anger issues that were off the charts and basically had no friends from ages 15 to 21. I just sat in the house all day and feared going out. The only thing that seemed to help was the internet.
Today, I'm still fighting anxiety daily and hoping that getting out more will eventually lessen the symptoms, but I know I need therapy and probably some local friends or, what I think might be most important, getting a job or volunteering where I can actually feel like I'm helping others since that always seems to make me feel good.
It's nice to meet you all.