WARNING: May be TMI for neuro-phobes: I've been reading and debating for many days as to whether or not I should write about my **S phobia on here, because I feel so ashamed, but ultimately, I had to admit I need some solid advice. As some of my fellow **S phobics are aware, I first began experiencing BFS 17 years ago while running daily and playing tennis on weekends. The fascics and feelings of weakness came on suddenly, and I mustered up the courage to visit two separate neuros (for a total of 5 visits, I believe). At the time I was CERTAIN I had MS or **S because of the fasciculations, fatigue and feelings of weakness all over, etc. It's embarrassing, but I also had true difficulty emptying my bladder, electrical sensations in my arms, decrease in sexual function (not desire -- inability to fully orgasm - sorry if TMI). About 8 years later, (and after peripheral electro-conductive tests (not EMG), 4 full clinical exams blood work, MRI of brain and spinal cord) which were all normal, I found out two things. 1) I'd had an acute Epstein-barr virus infection and 2) They suspected fibromyalgia -- later dx'd by a rheumatologist. I continued to go about my business for the next several years obsessing about other illnesses... never taking any one too seriously. Then *POW* I'm in the midst of a full-blown **S panic all over again! I feel shaky and weak in the left arm and leg, the bottoms of both feet burn, some fascics (not terrible). I'm so terrified of **S that I almost wish they'd dx me with MS because it's manageable! I personally know two people with MS who are doing great (you'd never know it to look at them). My fear is this: My BFS or fibromyalgia has finally gone AWOL and is now killing my motor neurons (e.g. it was a very slow, insidious onset and now it's got me). I am particularly alarmed because I had a flu-shot September 2013, and am thinking it may have harmed me. In the past two weeks I've noticed that my left arm seems to fatigue more easily, and my rotator cuff and occasionally my forearm aches. There is a buzzing sensation in both lower legs and they feel "heavier" than normal with burning feet (intermittent). I have not dropped anything or tripped, but I'm terrified that I will, then I'll really lose it. I still have widespread fascics, but they seem to be more noticeable than usual because now I'm really paying close attention. Guys, I know this sounds like a jumbled, frantic mess, but that is because it's being written by a deranged person. Trying to work full time and run a home with this broken-record in my head is just awful. BTW, I am 49, about 30 lbs overweight, mildly HBP, and my only known diagnosis is Fibromyalgia. I take blood pressure medication and Ativan prn. The most frustrating part is that I have symptoms of Fibro, MS and also fasciculations! Nothing seems to fit. I'm at a loss and I really want to avoid wasting the doctor's time (and my money) going in for expensive and frightening tests. I need a voice (or voices) of reason. Please help me get beyond this!