I have been on the health anxiety train for 3 years now....2 of those I was in "remission". I was put on Prozac & did great. I have diagnosed myself with everything from ovarian cancer to MS to brain tumors. The list is endless. 2 weeks ago out of the blue it all came back. HORRIBLY.
I am wrapped up in breast cancer now. I started ovulating 2 weeks ago & noticed that my breasts were sore. I started my cycle Wednesday but in the meantime I have had achy nodes (on each side, although they alternate days sometimes), soreness off & on, & sometimes out of no where I will get a little ping of pain on either one.
Everything has happened on BOTH SIDES, either at the same time or alternate days. Last week my right side bothered me, this week the left has had a turn.
Today there is a node under my left arm that is sore & when I rub it is actually gets better. & I have had major sinus issues/allergies the past month so maybe it's connected to that????
I started back with my therapist last week. I made an appt with my Dr. to Rx me Prozac again. & I made an appt with my OBGYN since I haven't been in 2 years (I was too scared).
I cry ALL OF THE TIME now. I am SO depressed. I cannot be left alone now bc I lose it & cry & am unable to function. I have planned out how the next few weeks will go...GYN appt-mammogram-biopsy-chemo-dead within the year.-my kids will not have a mom.
I want ME back. Even the me from 2 weeks ago. I don't know how any of this started but guys....I AM MISERABLE.