this is my first post here, look like a great community. Firstly i'm 21 have had GAD and panic in the past and still do, after undergoing CBT my symptoms are down and at a kind of base level that over time i hope to get rid of. One of my biggest fears used to be that i was going crazy, that i going to see things start hearing things or that the mental fog and hazy was the start of me going crazy. I have reached a better understanding of psychosis now and understand the difference between anxiety and it.
However there is a few strange things that happen to me, firstly i appear to have quite sensitive eyes, when i drive at night, and it rely is only at night, and only when i drive i will see faint blops of blue in my vision. Whilst this was very scary to start off with i believe that it is triggered by the streetlights. I even thought that it wasn't happening anymore at one point but then i relised that the clocks were just going back and i wanst driving at night anymore. Furthermore when i work at a computer there is a tiny blue LED light on the bottom of the computer that i get stuck in my vission befliy when i look away, However this only happens if im at a computer and if i tape it up it goes away. When my GAD was worse i though these were signs that i was seing thing, and i feel in to the trap of scanning for things in my vission. This had left me in the postion were im highly percptive and i seem to notice ALOT of thigs out of my perifial visson. For example i have a A4 purple peice of paper on desk every time i walk past it catches my eye. Can any one relate to this?
the second strange thing that happens to me is i imagine voices as if they are thoughts. if im in a long conversation with somone after leaving the conversation have there voice stuck in my head. i dont hear the voice as such, it is more i would think of something then i might think they might say, but the thought of what they might say might come into my head in there voice. This has also started happen if im reading alot of universtiy work, i might get a random though in my head as if im imagining someone elses voice, somtimes just in the form of random chatter. Also when i woriy about this it starts the scanning process off and i get random thoughts and peoples voices stuck in my head, almost as if my internal monolge chages to somone else voice. I understand that most things that corolate with anxity are nothing to wory about, and im not hearing voices with my ear they are distinctly thoughts.
Has anyone else experience things such as this, and does anyone have any idea how to stop the scanning for these things and is what i have descibed "normal" can anyone else relate?