I've been having a difficult week. I'd been doing great for weeks. No intrusive thoughts, no depression. I felt gloriously normal. This was after three weeks of Prozac, and 6 weeks of terrible intrusive thoughts and major depression. So this week when I felt like I was slipping, I was nervous about it, and sad.
I happened to have an appointment with my pdoc today, which happen once a month. I told him that after three weeks of awesomeness, I was disappointed to feel like I was regressing. He laughed and said, "Are you insane?!" I said, "A little! Look where I am!" He apologized for saying it, I didn't need an apology, it was funny. But then he said something helpful. He said, "When you have a few weeks of nice weather, do you think, 'Well, I guess it's going to be perfect forever,'?"
Of course not.
This is temporary.
I do not need to think these thoughts. It's just OCD messing with me.
Thanks for reading. I hope your winning all you battles.