I have never been diagnosed with OCD, but my husband says I am. He is always wanting me to go talk to someone (i don't think talking helps) and I've tried the medication and I feel just not myself on it. So I like to just walk around cold turkey.
I am a highly sensitive person to begin with so anything usually gets to me. However, I tend to have horribly fatalistic thoughts.. Which I think most people have them, but sometimes they just don't go away. For example, sometimes when my husband and myself go to the movies I get scared.. I especially get scared, because I think about the shooting that took place in Colorado and I imagine it happening as I am sitting their. I don't understand why I suddenly get these irrational fears. Another example is that I work in customer service and I sometimes deal with very very angry people. Sometimes I am scared that I will piss someone off so bad that they will come to my job and cause us harm. I am tired of thinking such stupid things because they are counter productive and really dont allow me to fully enjoy life.
I also have irrational fears of being raped and hurt. I am constantly mkaing sure the door is locked, if i am alone I watch over my shoulder, etc..
It sucks living life when you are scared ALL of the time or scared for the ones you love....
any advice? how do you deal with obsessive thoughts?