Again I find myself having to write down what's going on... Or I'll go mental having the thoughts stir around and round in my head. Will be a little TMI, mind.
Having a few stomch problems at the moment, namely being constipation, no appetite, poop being very dark when any does come out, and a hard lumpy feeling abdomen. The sad thing is I totally KNOW it's probably fine. I'm under quite a bit of stress at the moment, and I know these health issues have likely arisen just to match the stress and make things worse. The lumpiness is probably caused by the constipation as is the lack of appetite.
... However. Doesn't mean I can shake of the 'could be's. It COULD be something awfully wrong. That lump in my abdomen COULD be a tumour. The constipation COULD be caused by it, and I could be full up with blood which is turning my poop black. As I sit here I swear I can FEEL everything down there just being terribly wrong. Like blood's seeping around through my digestive system, and I'm going to die. And I'm housesitting at the moment for someone, so I can't even run off to my doctor. I just have to sit and feel myself dying.
... Which of course I'm not. But it seems that know amount of knowing that I'm fine will take away my subconscious knowing that I'm not. Might help me if I knew other people have had these symptoms though. Thanks for reading.