I unfortunately can relate to that exactly. It's almost like I've gotten myself into a protective mode and for whatever reason, pills have been on the forefront of me feeling like they could possibly be dangerous.
Though coincidentally, I've never once had a bad outcome with any pill, or pills I have ever taken. In fact, it's been just the opposite, pills have actually gotten me better many times.
I wish I could explain this to my brain and be done with this fear already, because it really is so tiring and make life more difficult than it has to be.
If you come up with any answer's, please let me know. Otherwise, you can picture me doing the exact same thing as you and cringing and fighting my way through the stupid pill taking..lol. Sigh..we can overcome this. For some reason, I do honestly believe that.