I've dealt with anxiety for a really long time, about as long as I can remember. I've been seeing therapists off and on since I was 8, which was when I started having full blown panic attacks. I'm currently a senior in the history department at my local college and I have a lot of ambition and dreams as to what I want to do in the field. I've been lucky enough to have found a wonderful therapist, and she's been helping me work through some of the ways in which anxiety hurts me with regards to school, but I'm having a really hard time.
School is something that has always been important to me. In the past the structure and the educational content of school made the classroom feel safe and engaging. Since I've been in college I've felt more and more alienated by school. I care a lot about my performance, and I am constantly comparing myself to others. I also tend to care a lot about what my professors think of me, to the point that I am paralyzed by fear of angering or upsetting them. Because of my anxiety, I have a hard time organizing myself well enough to work ahead on assignments. I tend to avoid situations that cause anxiety or stress and therefore avoid assignments until I have no choice but to face them (the night before a deadline). I generally get really good grades, but last year I failed a class because I became so anxious about falling behind. I'm afraid that I am in the process of doing so again.
I think this is probably a pretty common issue for college students with various anxiety disorders. How does your anxiety affect your experience in school? What has helped you to plan better and deal with communicating with professors? Does anyone have advice on coming to terms with the fact that having an anxiety disorder makes engaging in academia a struggle?