It seems as though my "HOCD" has made me desensitized to things that are homosexual. Dont get me wrong it's still gross but i don't find myself to be petrified of it anymore, which concerns me.... I dont know if this is anxiety screwing with my brain or what but it just dosent seem to as disgusting, only a tad. Furthermore, I get the sensation of sucking another dudes ____ (you know what i mean) and I get disgusted and dont like the feeling but i feel like im lying to myself. I also feel like all of the disgusted faces that im making and the slight "puke-y" feeling, is just me faking it and that I actually enjoy that kind of stuff. Lastly, I get the typical things with HOCD like if I think a guy looks nice or handsome then my brain just fixates on the fact that im going to be gay, as well as when i was in my all boys gym class one day, i felt my ___ move but i didnt achieve an erection nor have I ever to a guy. I sometimes get random erections but I blame that one on puberty. So what do you guys think? is this desensitizing thing indicating that i am gay or even bisexual (Trying to not obsess over this one, now that i think of it).