I work as a dental assistant. I work around blood almost every day and with a large variety of patients. I have been almost poked and once I even thought I had gotten pricked by a needle (patient was HIV- AFAIK) but it had not drawn any blood and left no mark. Most days I am not too concerned about germs and just do my job. Some days are a lot harder.
Lately I've been getting a weird rash on my neck. I used to get hives from anxiety but this is very different - it starts as a red patch and the next day is really dry, almost scaly. I have tried antihistamines (thought it was hives) and antifungal creams (thought maybe ringworm since I have dogs and young patients) to no effect. A similar rash occurred almost 2 months ago - I got home from work after a really stressful day and the top of my hands randomly started feeling like they were burning/itching and they had little red dots like hives suddenly appear but the next day they became intensely dry. They cleared up with some hydrocortisone cream maybe 3 days later and it hasn't happened since. At the time, I thought maybe it was because I had a latex sensitivity so I switched gloves for a while but eventually switched back to regular gloves and it hasn't happened since.
I was out of town for a conference this weekend and I went out drinking with my group and I woke up with this red patch on my neck and cheek. The next day, the area turned extremely dry. It doesn't really itch. I had a smaller patch of this occur the week before and it is almost completely cleared up now thanks to the hydrocortisone cream.
I do not know what this is but I googled red dry rash and AIDS came up, as well as lymphoma. I am really tired and I have been feeling hot during the day (but to be fair, it is like 80 degrees here usually and my office is stuffy and I wear a jacket). I do not have a fever, cough, flu or anything of that nature but I do get small headaches probably every other day. I also am pretty clumsy and I forget things but this has been occurring for a while. It's not too bad but I do trip over things a lot and sometimes forget to do things. My hands also shake sometimes. I had an stomach disturbance the morning after the night I went out drinking but I think it was because I had too much to drink and it cleared out my system.
Has anyone dealt with this fear before? I can't help but feel like maybe I accidentally touched blood and didn't know it or stabbed myself with something and didn't know it. I don't know why I keep thinking this. I really want to get an HIV/Hep screening just to put my mind at ease but then I'm scared of what the results might be. My husband has gotten so used to my fears that now he just says "you're fine" and completely ignores the fact that my neck feels like a desert.
Please, help me set my mind at ease. This fear is really freaking me out.