I have recently been feeling recently frustrated and have had a hard time articulating my feelings. I remember meeting with a school therapist a year ago and she told me that I seem angry even though there is nothing in my personality or delivery to suggest "anger" but now I realize that she was right. University has been a roller coaster for me. I came to college expecting to make meaningful friendships, find people who have the same interests as me or people who I can have good/meaningful/intellectual conversations with. I am in no way a genius or a high achieving student and I don't think those are necesarily pre-reqs to having intellectual/meaningful conversations. But in coming to school, I feel that I was naive to think I should take school as anything else besides a place to get my degree and graduate. First, I am in a health-major that is considered to be one of the top programs at my school. My hope was to be a part of interesting discussions or solutions in my field, but instead I feel like I was around people who just enjoyed showing off than actually wanting to make a real difference. We were taught about professionalism ad nauseum instead of focusing on health-related topics of interest. I feel like so much of what I was taught was to be fake or be a suck up instead of being enthusiastic. I am a minority too (one of about 10 in a 100 person class) and am shocked at the number of ignorant comments that would pass when discussing health disparities and the such. The only way you could socialize with anybody if you drank and I don't drink nor like going to the bar even when not drinking. Am I naive to think there would be people who would want to do something else-drink tea or go to a museum? Am I naive to think that I hoped I could at least find a friend to go to a hip-hop concert with? Not a single person in my 100 person class likes hip-hop. I went to most concerts alone. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for receiving an education, grateful for the opportunities I had at school, but I am dissapointed that I have not made any friendships in school that I can say were meaningful to me. I didn't have friends in high school and college was somewhere I was excited to meet new people. People make the post-grad world sound like an awful place and that's not encouraging seeing that university was not what I expected it to be. I am really hoping for meaningful friendships/relationships as a graduate, whether in the working world or if I go back to school. I am wondering if anybody else has a similar story to share or some experiences, maybe some encouragement.