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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #10 on: May 04, 2014, 01:07:24 PM »
Wander, you will befine. Many of us are and have suffered the way you are right now.  It takes time, patience courage, the right medication and unerstanding therapist.  Ziloft is a wonderful drug.  Don't be discouraged that it isn't workingright away.  It takes several weeks.  In the meantime, you should have an anxiolytic drug like xanax or klonopin to help you through.

Of course, I find Zoloft to be a nightmare drug so I can't support your position.

Xanax is a street value drug and some Doctors are reluctant if they are suspicious of you. But I've had no trouble getting them. My PAs are VERY real and I am very clear about that when addressing Doctors. Some Doctors feel the way I do about Xanax. It's cheap and it works. If you are a GENUINE Panic disorder sufferer, you can't abuse Xanax. If you are not, then you can get "high" from them. So, a good Doctor knows if you are a GENUINE PA sufferer, you should be on them instead of that SSRI class.

Doctor shopping for Opiates will bring the law down on you. But shopping for Xanax - as long as you are legit about your needs - is something you SHOULD do.

(DISCLAIMER: This is an opinion I feel strongly about but I am not a Doctor. I'm sure the Zoloft advocates will not agree - but IMHO, Zoloft is possible effective for depression but NOT for Panic Attacks.)

The deep breathing, in thru the nose, out through the mouth until you EMPTY your lungs is a recommended strategy. Sometimes I need someone to demand I do this or I panic in the process of emptying my lungs. So come here or a hotline and have yourself pressured into doing it.

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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #11 on: May 04, 2014, 05:29:09 PM »
We have a similar story besides i have had anxiety all my life, I had a really good 5 years with minimal anxiety that I could handle with self talk and deep breathing. My father passed away suddenly in November and now I am housebound. I have multiple attacks a day, and feel just defeated. I am constantly monitoring my breathing, I bought a blood pressure cuff and a pulse ox. Its just out of control. I went to my PCP and they gave me zoloft. I hate it. I stopped taking it because my head felt so strange. He will not give me Xanax, so instead I have been taking benadryl or Meclizine to calm me. I am CONVINCED I am in heart failure and really upset my PCP did not do an EKG or something, he says its all anxiety...and you know what? It is. Its just that. I know it is...and I know I will be ok, and so will you. Just wanted to share my story since we both lost our fathers. I am so sorry. Take care.
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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #12 on: May 04, 2014, 09:37:55 PM »
Hi, I just wanted to say that you're not alone.  A lot of the symptoms you describe are the same symptoms I have suffered with.  I also know how it feels to be so overcome with anxiety/panic that I've left a shopping cart full of things and ran out of the store.  I have been in the middle of grocery shopping and felt as though I was going to drop to the floor (faint).  Another time my heart began to beat so fast that I felt faint, and had to run to the restroom to compose myself. I know exactly what you are talking about and how you are feeling, so please know you are not alone.

My Mom passed away in 2012....after a long 5 year struggle with COPD.  I was her caretaker, I also was the one who found her after she had passed away, laying on the kitchen floor.  The 4 days following that my heat rate was so elevated I did not sleep (for 4 days). I lost a few pounds that I could not afford to lose.  I found myself back at square one with my anxiety battle. 

I look around at other people out and about---no one seems to suffer the way I do.....I have never known anyone who has anxiety like this, so it is a very isolating experience to say the least.

I recently started taking Celexa, but I have started on a very low dose, trying to work my way up.  When I go back to my doctor for my follow-up I'm going to ask for a referral to a psychologist.

I don't know what advise to offer, but I can say, it does and can get better, because I am more than 50% better than I was.  I no longer panic when I'm out or driving, and my heart rate is normal most of the time.  So don't worry, it doesn't have to be as bad as it is now.  Keep working at it and you'll find what helps you---don't give up!

Take care :)
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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #13 on: May 04, 2014, 10:20:43 PM »
Wander,
I am also sorry to hear you are going through this. And I'm sorry for the loss of your father.

SSRIs do take weeks to reach effective levels. And while I believe in meds, broadly speaking, GPs don't know squat about mental health issues. I would find a psychiatrist and get an initial consultation. This consult should not be 15 minutes. My first visit to a pdoc took nearly three hours. He went through my entire history, both medical and mental, he asked dozens of questions, and only then did he offer a diagnosis and treatment. And he would never, ever have said that should be over anything by now. That is hacky.

I didn't see him for panic, though. I saw him for bad OCD and depression. Several year ago I did have daily panic attacks for like three months or so. I too was at my wits end. I started working with a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist and it's been years since I had a panic attack.

Someone once told me that after you have one panic, every panic attack after that is from fear of having another panic attack. I buy that. You can, and will get your life back. Whether it's through CBT or meds, or a combination of the two, it will absolutely happen. But it won't be through your gp. Ask around, find a professional who specializes in this. Seeing your GP for a mental health issue is like seeing your GP for cancer. Frankly, your GP shouldn't have even treated you. Can you imagine your GP saying, "well, I think you have heart disease, so I'm going to open up a vein in your leg, and with an orthoscope I'm going to wind my way up to your heart to put in a stent." No way! He'd send you to a cardiologist! But because it's mental health, he thinks, "oh, I'll just shove whatever old med I've heard of and tell her to get over it." It's BS and it's upsetting. Find a specialist who knows all meds and treatments available.

Hang in there. You'll pull through.
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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #14 on: May 05, 2014, 01:06:07 AM »
Thanks everyone for your kind words. It certainly helps to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way. It's very hard on those around me, especially my significant other, who has a hard time understanding what I'm going through.

I think the fact the I had to basically watch my father die for a year before he actually passed has caused me more trauma then I initially realized.  I'm more afraid of death than I used to be and it gets to my head. I wish that I could find a way to just shut my brain off. Night time is the worst, I seem to think of five million things at once right before bed, hence why most of my panic attacks happen at night.

My GP did give me Xanax to help while the Zoloft kicks in. I'm still unsure about taking it, without the opinion of a psychiatrist, but I've already been on it for 6 days, so I'm not sure if it's safe to quit so I keep taking it? I'm going to a psychiatrist next week, so possibly I will just stick it out til then. I seem to be doing okay today after my stint with 911 last night, but I also have taken .5mg of Xanax at breakfast and .5mg this evening. It's the only thing that makes me feel normal at the moment.
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Re: Can't live like this anymore - Constant panic
« Reply #15 on: May 05, 2014, 09:55:27 AM »
I used to take ambien every night. You are supposed to take it for no more than two weeks, I took it for, oh, a year and a half. But what I did was I cut the ambien up until I was taking the smallest dose I could. I don't know what the Xanax dosage is, but is it possible to take a smaller dose? I had 10mg Ambien tablets that I cut into 1/8ths. It was just that tiny little that helped at night to take the edge off until I was asleep. And then if I woke up with my heart pounding, I could take another 1/8th and still only have had a 1/4 of a tab total.

But, regardless, my psych got me off the ambien by giving me a small dose of Trazodone. It's an anti depressant at 400mg, but at 50mg - 100mg it's a non-habit forming sedative. I take 100mg 1/2 hour before bed and it knocks me out. It's not like I can't wake up if there's a noise or something, but I'm so tired I just fall back to sleep. The other night my wife was going to read for a minute and I said goodnight. The next morning I asked her how fast I fell asleep and she said, "I think you were asleep within 15 seconds." Ask your pdoc about it. Might help you sleep instead of panic, and without the Xanax.

And I completely know what it is like to be going through severe mental health crisis while in a long term relationship. When my OCD kicked into overdrive and I became severely depressed and even suicidal my porridge wife suffered so much and couldn't understand anything about what I was going through. Getting the help you need is the best thing you can do. Just tell your significant other, "I know you don't understand this, and I'm sorry you have go through this with me. I love you, I promise Two things. One, I'm going to get the help that I need; and two, this is temporary. Recovery doesn't happen overnight, and there will be ups and downs, but ultimately I will get better."

It's fantastic that you're going to the pdoc! I hope he/she is amazing and caring and a genius to boot.

Good luck. I'm rooting for you. You're not alone.
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