Hey... I feel odd posting like this my first time on the forum, but I'm freaking out here.
I have GAD and panic disorder comorbid with depression, and a crippling case of emetophobia. I've been dealing with all of these for a long time (they started when I was 14; I'm now 22).
I need help, or just someone to listen to me, because I have a weird problem only you guys will probably understand. I'm a poor recent college grad and live in a tiny apartment with a roommate. We aren't close, but we've been sharing the place for a year. Problem is, today he has some kind of gastric illness and I'm terrified! I feel like everything around me is contaminated, and that I might be sick too and not know it yet. I haven't been sick that way since before I was a teenager; I would rather die than have to... you know. So I'm really, REALLY scared of getting sick.
I also feel guilty because I'm not being better to my roommate! I'm sure he'd like some support, but I'm trying my best to hold myself together. He knows I have this phobia and is respectful about it, but I don't think he knows the extent of it. I managed to bring some medicine to his room, but even after washing my hands several times I still feel contaminated.
I can't leave my apartment since I live in a dangerous area and it's nighttime. I'd just like it if someone could give me some advice, or support. My parents are great, but I often feel like no one completely understands how irrational my mind gets in situations like this.
If you read all this, thank you for hearing me out. I know it was a bit long and rambly.