Welcome, Lucinda. You are a brave girl and have done much work to get out of your fear state. THe power is within all of us and here at Anxiety Zone, we support each other regarding what works for us, and what might possibly be beneficial to you. I, too, deal with panic, but I am working on my mindfulness, and I have two beautiful grandchildren to keep me busy a lot of days. I also have a very supportive psychiatrist and I am experimenting with her on different meds, which seem to be working.
As you have discovered, you are much stronger than you think, especially after having such a terrible experience.
I wish you continued recovery and joy in the small moments of life that can bring us back to reality.
Julie A. Cook
P.s. Chuchulan is right. The "chat room" is a support place. It gets silly sometimes, but we all needa bit of silliness in our lives when there's so much fear and bad news.