Hey friends. I think i'm going through some new kind of HOCD. (sorry about my amateur english)
There are dozens of topics about guys who lived their whole life being attracted to women, and only women, and suddenly started questioning "am I gay?" "Do I like Men?". I understand that. But, my case is a little bit different.
I'm also a man who likes women, and only women. But, a few days from now, when watching a porn movie, I looked to the man's penis and suddenly I stopped seeing his penis like if it was nothing, and I started to notice it. Boom. That was the beginning of my worries. I strated to think about penises all day long. On the first days it made me sick. But now, after so much thinkinfg, I'm not even disgusted for penis anymore. My mind keeps making me imagine myself performing b-jobs, and for me became so natural as imagine myself performing oral in a woman, like I always did. That's pretty bizzare. In other words, I'm not afraid of being homosexual. I still don't like men. And I know it. I just don't have any problem anymore with penises. @_@ And I don't like it. I wish I could be 100% straight again. If there's 1 person in the world who sympathizes with me on this, please comment. Peace, brothers.