Hello all. I'm 25, male from cali.
So i have about a 3 year history with anxiety disorder. it started in 2008 after my dad suffered a heart attack. Not long after I began getting panic attacks and a result became agorophobic. After about 3 months of utter hell, convinced I had a serious illness, I gave in and saw a cbt therapist. After a few months of medication and CBT I recovered and was doing pretty well.
All that went to crap this past December when I had a bout of sinus infections. Since then my anxiety (mostly hypochondrasis) has gone into over drive. CBT, zoloft, regular therapy, nothing seems to be helping.I've had 24 (yes I counted) doctors appointments since January. These include my reg doc, 3 ENT's, and a gastroentrologist. No matter what I tell myself, I cannot get the thought out of my head that something is seriously wrong with me and they just haven't found it.
A list of my physical objective symptoms:
excess blood and mucus in stool
tinnusits ( especially bad because I can hear my pulse all the time)
sleepiness (10-12 hours a day and still tired)
10 pound weight loss in a month
feeling brain fog, like I can think of words, forget things, bad memory
I've had about 4 blood tests, ct scan, stress test
All my tests have come back fine, (expect my ct scan which showed i had a sinus infection & a blood test which showed high liver enzymes but everything was ruled out and it went back to normal shortly after my infection subsided)
I can stress enough the other pain this is causing me. I'm depressed, missing school (might compromise my graduation in two weeks), constantly anxious and worried. I have 0 energy, literally getting out of bed is exhausting. I google my symptoms and have been convinced I have Chrons disease, a tumor, tesitcular cancer, heart problems, the list goes on and on. The new one im worried about, is something wrong with my brain like a tumor or such. I really want to see a neurologist but feel like my doctors wont believe me or give me referral. Even though i can intellectually understand I have hypochondria, part of me keeps thinking they missed something or that some of these symptoms are too "real" to be cause by mere anxiety. I don't know what to do, im truly at my wits end.
Thanks for listening, i hope i might find some comfort in this forum