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Offline lugus15

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Extreme Cancer fear
« on: April 22, 2014, 10:13:44 PM »
Well, hello

I've been lurking this forums for quite some time now, but till now I got the courage to post.

Well, I suffer from severe (and paralyzing) hypochondriasis. It started in July of last year, and since then I've had 5 attacks of it. I suffer, my family suffers and it seems like I go from doctor to doctor and still they are recurrent. 

The first attack I was convinced that I was going to die of heart disease, it lasted six weeks. Since then, all my hypochondria has been limited to an extreme fear of Cancer, of getting it, of having a slow, painful death, of knowing when and how one is going to die. After that first attack (fear of heart disease) I do not care at all about heart disease or other types of disease, it's all about cancer.

The Second and Third attacks (they overlapped, FUN!!! right!!!) were about metastatic terminal cancer and melanoma respectively (when in fact I only had a mild discomfort in the lower back and some moles that I've always had, but I could see and feel them grow by the minute). Those attacks lasted six weeks also, and took me to the dermatologist and several doctors, and several tests.

The Fourth attack, which started during Christmas and the New Year's holiday, which means that they were completely ruined, was about Colon Cancer. It lasted 8 weeks, and was only stopped by having a Colonoscopy performed on me (needless to say, it turned out I had only a spastic colon, they didn't even find out a Polyp, or Ulcer, nothing).

Currrently I'm in my Fifth attack, which started two weeks ago. Last week it was Easter Week (in my country we have the whole week as a break) and it was completely ruined for me. I'm kinda of embarrassed to say it, but this attack is a fear that I have either Testicular and/or Penile Cancer.  I have been feeling my testicles all this time and I can't find any lump or anything, so I kinda been putting the Testicular fear to rest. BUT I do have a rather prominent vein (or it may be a snake-like lump) on my penile shaft. I'm extremely fearful it maybe a tumor or something. I don't want to involve my family in this, because: 1) they have suffered thru my past attacks too much and 2) because of the body parts it's involved, I'm embarrassed. I may have this vein or thing since for ever, but for the life of me I can't remember and I've become obsessed with it.   

I feel like I'm going mad, and if it continues like this, I don't think I'll ever enjoy life again.

PS 1: Please excuse my English, it's not my first language. I'm from Guatemala and live in that country.

PS 2: Dr. Google has been basically the first culprit of my attacks, but on top of my hypochondria, I also suffer from extreme phobia to the doctor. I even had a panic attack (where I felt that I was having a heart attack) at the doctor's office during my first attacks. After going to several doctors, it has gotten better, but I still fear it.

PS 3: Unfortunately I have been known of some 3 or 4 people who have died of cancer recently, and have been witness to the devastating effects of that disease on family and friends so I do know that Cancer is real and happen to anyone.

PS 4: I forgot. I'm a 31 year old male. I'm not sexually active (the fear of venereal disease is too big for me), and till July of last year in excellent health.

Thanks!!!
 
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Offline Brick5711

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Re: Extreme Cancer fear
« Reply #1 on: April 23, 2014, 07:13:25 AM »
I have cancer. I thought I would be having a panic attack every day but I don't. As a hypochondriac, it is our tendency to worry about things we don't have. Could you talk to a therapist. I can't tell you that you do not have cancer, but with no symptoms and overall being healthy, i doubt that you do.
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Re: Extreme Cancer fear
« Reply #2 on: April 23, 2014, 01:06:34 PM »
Ok not to get too personal here but a vein in your ding ding is just a route for blood supply .  I am a happily married sexually active female and my hubby has severay veins and arteries that are visible especially when he is aroused.  This is normal and in no way a sign of cancer.  I think you need to find a  therapist who does telephone consulting and look int cbt and possibly meds.  The fact that your aniety is cutting you off from your sexuality is tragic.  There is no reason to miss out on such a big.part of adult.life...due to a treatable condition!  So stop messing with the boys unless it's for pleasure, call a doc who will work with you over the phone or vid chat...and if you really need to see a normal ding ding look at a porn pic.  Weird I know but those folks get tested for everything under the sun every six months so you can be sure it's a normal healthy man piece.  Try to relax and if you have trouble saying what you mean in English well...yo hablo espanol muy bien.  Hang in there!
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Re: Extreme Cancer fear
« Reply #3 on: April 23, 2014, 10:19:50 PM »
Well, an update.

Today after driving all over town in search of an urologist (I'm extremely blessed in that I am able to afford getting the best doctors in my country, when and where I want them), after 4 places I finally found an excellent clinic (where people were not closed because of  ¨HAVING LUNCH¨), I got it checked by an urologist. It turned out to be what I suspected, a prominent vein. He recommended aspirin for it.

Of course after my past health anxiety attacks, when getting the clear by the doctor I treated myself to something material I wanted and was elated all afternoon. I just hope and prey that this time it lasts and I don't start with something else in the near future.

Thanks for the replies. This place really helps a lot.

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