hi. I'm new here and have some questions about some worrying thoughts I keep having. I suffered from postnatal anxiety after the birth of my daughter which over time seems to have changed from worrying about her to horrible thoughts about my husband. I keep thinking he must have cheated on me or will do, I worry that he regrets splitting up from his ex and that he would prefer to be with her, I wonder if he has ever paid for things he shouldn't, I keep wondering about his other previous relationships and what he did. We've been together over 10 years, we're happily married, own a house together and have a child together. I have absolutely no evidence that he any of this is true, but I can't get it out of my head. He knows how I feel and is very understanding, but I always want to quiz him. I spend hours looking on ***** for clues that he's cheating on me. I know these thoughts are irrational, but they've taken over my life. I can't enjoy anything and feel uncomfortable around my husband. I feel like a really awful person for thinking like this. I should trust him completely, as he does me. He would be better off without me and be with someone who can behave rationally. I hate myself so much. My doctor says I'm showing some signs of obsessive behaviour. Is this a type of ocd? Does anyone else have thoughts like this or am I just plain jealous and horrible?