I have bouts of anxiety - usually brought on by alcohol and other substances. I am a survivor of sexual assault and was diagnosed with PTSD in 2006. I have had anxiety issues since - mostly related to being abandoned or that people will leave me (because my two best friends stopped talking to me after my sexual assault as he was a mutual friend). Now I get really anxious that if I say or do anything wrong, people will get really upset with me. I think I have some social anxiety as well as I get really uncomfortable around people that I don't know.
I was also removed from my dad's care - very abruptly - when I was 5 years old as the California court ordered my mother to have immediate, full custody of my sister and I - yet we hadn't seen her since we were 1 years old. Being abruptly moved - to another state, and another and father - was incredibly anxiety provoking and that's when I started to bite my nails.
In middle school I pulled my hair out.
Now I have anxiety - which usually means daily heightened anxiety and anxiety attacks that can be very brutal after substances and alcohol.
I always get terrible guilt and go through a depressive state after my anxiety attacks. I hope to find solutions to my issue and heal from my trauma.