So last month I had to go away on a business trip which involved flying. It was a pretty stressful time and I am a very bad flyer which ended in me having a huge anxiety attack 3 days into the trip for the first time in about 3 years. Since then I have noticed that when I get tired I am finding my anxiety is returning.
This week I am again on a business trip however this time I am staying within the UK. I travelled down on Monday and worked yesterday completing 12 hours work. I was pretty tired afterwards but then we had to go out for tea which meant I didnt get back to the B&B for another 2 hours but I felt fine and didnt have any aniety. By this time it was 10pm. I felt I needed some down time before sleeping and so I watched tv for a while and worked on a website I own. I got to bed about 12:30 and woke at 7:00 but I feel like the quality of sleep wasn't the best.
Again as in Spain I find myself having waves on anxiety coming and going. Does anyone else experience this when they are tired despite having gotten over the main symptoms in the past? I never get it when I have had a good nights sleep. It is so annoying particularly as I got over all this many years back to the point where I never had anxiety and quite the opposite. I was totally confident 99% of the time and used to laugh at the symptoms if they ever tried to return. I know it will never overtake me again like it did last time as I have the tools to prevent a full take over but a bit of reassurance always helps. It was only 2 years ago that I spent a lot of time being the one reassuring others that they could get over it!
I hate how frustrating anxiety is, one minute you feel terrible and the next you feel at peace. I am now sat here feeling pretty good and wondering why I worried in the first place. I don't know whether this is down to using the tools I acquired the last time I beat anxiety or not but I feel better for now. I think the issue seems to stem from not being able to control my overthinking when I am tired and it over runs my mind. I seem to suffer more with the obsessive thoughts that try and creep in and make me feel and think a certain way. I just try to welcome them in and see them for what they are but sometimes when tired they can worm their way in and trigger my anxiety.