Today is the day we find out who get's fired and who doesn't from the company i've been working at for 9.5 years. It's gone downhill. High ups are jumping ship. other employees are desperately trying to find new jobs. I'm holding out for redundancy so I can get out of debt. But today i'm not feeling good. Mood wise i'm not overly anxious but symptom wise it's aches and pains in my lower back, chest, arms, dizziness, heartburn, hot flashes, derealization and nausea.
We're going to find out in 26 minutes what's happening. Ach I left my Propanolol at home. Don't think I really need it but i'm just feeling really off today symptom wise. Shall have to wait and see I suppose.
At this point though i'm willing to admit it's a chemical imbalance. I tried CBT and I do understand the logical side of anxiety like the back of my hand. I have slipped back int bad habits with worrying which fuels the fight or flight response and creates the daily symptoms I experience. But often I don't feel anxious 24/7 but I do get aches and pains every moment of everyday. Today my body is going into overdrive though.
Dr started me on a new medication. Couldn't sleep on any of the SSRI's I tried in the past and gave up after 2 or 3 weeks. So now i'm on Mirtazapine (starting tonight) GP said it shouldn't effect sleep and should see benefits after 2-3 weeks.