I'm 15 and I have been having horrible Anxiety and now I'm not sure whether or not I'm Schizophrenic.
I have self diagnosed with many illnesses in the past, both Physical and Mental (Diabetes, Heart Problems, Multiple Sclerosis and others).
This most recent fear of mine is horrible I can't get over the thought that I'm Schizophrenic and slowly losing my sanity.
I have constantly think about it all day and it's taking over my life. I know pretty much all of the symptoms
of it and I can't tell if I'm just making these things up in my mind or if they're symptoms of Schizophrenia.
I've been to my Psychologist 4 times now and everything we're doing isn't really helping, I've also been on
Wellbutrin for 1 week which also seems to not be helping yet.
Back to my Schizophrenia fear, more specifically Schizophrenia onset. I have no family members with it, but I was
born grey with low oxygen and not breathing. My mother and I both got an infection from our blood mixing
NOT Pre-Eclampsia anyways. I do know the lack of Oxygen can lead to a greater chance of developing it.
I have used Marijuan recreationally about 8 times but haven't touched it for the past year and a half
because it gave me a horrible panic attack. I'm also aware that Marijuana can lead to Schizophrenia.
I have been getting very depressed also and self loathing for an hour or so and I will cry and feel better
usually. The Anxiety has also been really bad lately I think that this could be because of my Wellbutrin
Symptoms I'm experiencing are as follows.
Really bad Anxiety
Mild Paranoia I think(I hear people laughing and think what if it's about me but I don't believe it)
Everything seems to be louder(not sure if me being Hyper sensitive)
Depressed states(last for hours)
Loss of emotions
Not as social as I used to be
Think people might be with government but I don't believe it
My mind races
Socially awkward(but still like talking to friends)
I've pretty much convinced myself that I have it and no matter what anybody tells me
it doesn't really seem to change my mind. I'm not sure if the government I mentioned is some
sort of delusion or I know people experience that and it's become implanted into my brain and I'm
making myself think about it. When I'm truly distracted all of this stuff seems to go away.
I do not have any Hallucinations although I pay a ton of attention to everything I hear and try
to find a source.
Can somebody please reply, this took me a decent amount of time to type and I would appreciate
an intelligent response. I really just want some reassurance and my Psychologist has been
telling me I don't have it but it seems as if though my "symptoms" have been getting a lot worse in
the past week. Please don't just tell me to go to another person or a Psychiatrist it took a lot to let
my parents take me to a Psychologist for Anxiety.