I can totally relate to this. My Health Anxiety is completely out of control again at the moment and it's all I worry about from morning to night. Currently my main worries are stomach cancer and MS.
My question is, how are you able to have these invasive tests? This is my big problem. I can't rule out serious disease because I'm too scared to have any invasive tests. As well as Health Anxiety I have really bad Generalized Anxiety and it's worn me to a frazzle to the point where any additional stress just about sends me over the edge. I find hospitals very stressful so I don't even like going for routine appointments and blood tests (although I do) let alone invasive tests. So far I've had countless blood tests and a couple of ultrasounds, but I cannot handle the thought of an endoscopy or colonoscopy or even an abdominal CT scan because it involves drinking some horrible liquid and since I already feel nauseated and have stomach pain most of the time I just don't think it would be possible for me to drink that stuff without throwing up. Similarly with the endoscopy, how were you able to have that procedure? Even the thought of it makes me feel panicky?
I should say that my doctor is not urging me to have these tests since she thinks I have some form of stress/anxiety related Irritable Bowel Syndrome. But I feel I should have these tests to rule out stomach cancer.
I also worry hugely about Multiple Sclerosis because I do have some neurological symptoms. My doctor did refer me for an MRI of my brain, but I couldn't go through with it. Even though it was a supposedly "open" MRI, I still found it way too claustrophobic and I couldn't do it.
So I'm really in a bind because I worry about these diseases but I'm too scared to have the tests to rule them out.
I do already take an anti-depressant, but it just isn't cutting it. I guess I could take some heavy duty sedatives, but even just thinking about these types of tests makes me freak out, and that in turn makes my physical symptoms worse.
So I was just curious whether having the actual tests was a problem for you? Or whether anyone else, like me, really struggles with the thought of invasive tests?
Thanks for listening!
PS: Just a little basic info about me, I am a 50 year old female. As I age, my Health Anxiety is getting MUCH MUCH worse, presumably because I am getting closer to death and losing people close to me so reminders of mortality are all around :-(