I just wanted to see if anyone else feels how I do. As my medication starts to work a little more and I feel more like myself for little chunks of time, I find myself almost wishing it wasn't. It's like, when I'm anxious all the time I know it's there and I forget what it's like to feel normal. Then when I feel like my old self again and then crash (as happened today when a financial trigger shot me down from a HUGE high point) I feel worse than ever because I can remember what it's like to be really happy and "normal". I recognize the fact that I'm not the same "must do everything perfectly right away" person I was, but even getting back to a happy medium is awful because I know I'll slip again and it just gets worse each time. It's a mixture of depression and anxiety and this awful cycle... Like I said, I'm just curious if anyone feels the same way.