I just wanted to share my story to see if anyone can relate. I'm 18 years old now. I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. My parents always fought and they separated when I was 4. I cut myself for 7 years and I had an eating disorder for a few years. The chest pains started getting really bad in high school, I had to go to the nurse every morning because I felt like I was going to die from a heart attack.
The anxiety attacks tend to come and go in cycles. I will have them really bad for a period of time then I won't seem to get them as much for another period of time. I feel like it's ruling my life and I feel like I am going crazy. I'll get these sharp pains in my neck, arms, legs or anywhere on my body. I'll freak out over these little pains and it will turn into a full blown anxiety attack. My pounding heart and intense hot flashes have woken me up multiple times in my sleep. I have nightmares almost every night and I get nervous before I go to sleep. I have been on medication and that had only made things worse.
The worst feeling is when you have a partner who doesn't understand what you are going through. Luckily my boyfriend tries to understand anxiety as much as possible and he's pretty calm when I have the attacks. It just sucks because people will never really understand anxiety unless they experience it themselves. My grandmother and my mother both have generalized anxiety disorder so it must run in my family. I'll feel detached from reality and the room will start spinning sometimes. It can get so bad that my arms, face or legs will feel numb.
One thing that I really can't stand about these attacks is the stupid hot flashes. They make me feel like I'm overheating and like I'm going to get a fever then die. I'll be sweating like crazy and when my heart feels like it's going to explode on top of this it doesn't help at all....
When I have an anxiety or panic attack I'll feel like I have to get out of the room or place that I am in in order to get rid of it. That is not true though, I think the best thing you can do when you feel like you need to run away is stay in the same spot and do deep breathing. It's easier said then done and I am no master at this. I just want to feel like I'm not alone because honestly I feel like all of this is consuming me. Thanks for reading <3