I'm wondering if maybe I'm clinically depressed. I have never been diagnosed with depression and I've usually been a happy person. Sure I get sad sometimes like anyone but it has been happening more often lately.. Mostly I just see the world differently. I'm a "new" adult living on my own for just a year, working, going to school. I use to see the world so bright and full of opportunity, but now I see it for what it really is. It's full of unhappy people who are required to do things everyday that they don't want to do. People are raped, murdered, robbed, mis treated, ect.
Now this last week has me really worried. I'm not too worried coming down with a mental illness as long as I can still function in society. Well, this week I missed both days of school and didn't go to my doctors appointment today. Why? I just didn't feel like it. I have felt no energy or motivation to do anything. I just want to stay inside all day and sit. I'm not suicidal but it's a problem if I start not going to school. What if I stop going to work? What if I never leave my house again? It's an overwhelming feeling. I mean I kept telling myself this morning, "Go to your doctor appointment! Roll out of bed and go!" But I felt paralyzed.
So what do you guys think? I've never had this problem before. I really don't want to take medication for it because the only time I really did feel depressed was when I was on anti depressants for anxiety which I could feel litterally 0% joy on them. Any tips how to get passed this? Is it depression or just a temporary funk?